Thursday, May 15, 2014

Catch up with me

Well I realized I haven't really done a post of my life in awhile so I figured, for those who care, I would update you and myself (because let's face it...preggo brain is a REAL struggle and I've probably forgotten about half of my life recently) thank God for camera phones ;)

Well this week I have hit the 30 week preggo mark. Pure bliss. HA

I can't believe it has passed by this fast. I am now in my third trimester where I struggle to tie my own shoes, bend down to pick something up, and let's be honest...breathe. My tummy is growing by what seems to be the minute and everyone keeps asking me questions everywhere I go about this little bundle of joy inside of me. 

Regretfully so, I have not taken pictures of my tummy growing week by week like I had planned but I just have to accept the fact that even I am not perfect - hard to believe I know - (in case you missed that, I was being sarcastic)
The lovely morning sickness is still with me. I was one of those lucky women who got to experience throwing up my entire pregnancy. But I must admit it's more of a routine now than anything. But besides all of that I am happy to report that everything has been "A OK" during this pregnancy and I haven't had any real complications which is a thanks to God, especially because of my PCOS. 

Other than the pregnancy, my husband and I have been fighting ourselves to get our apartment all unpacked and ready for Stassi's homecoming. I know I know, still not unpacked seems just ridiculous but then I think about it and did you know we have barely even been married for 2 months?! Crazy because it feels so much longer. So I guess although my normal self would have had major OCD and unpacked the whole apartment by myself if I had to, my pregnant self has taken her time...don't judge ;) BUT we have finally been getting a move on it and I am also completely happy to report that our 2 dogs and our fish are still alive so we are doing something right. 

My husband and I work for the same company and I recently got moved to another organization and got a little pay raise and who knows what else is going to happen job wise...we are definitely thinking about that one a lot. If I could, I would stay home forever to be with my baby girl, but that's just not possible yet. But I trust that God knows what He is doing for us...after all, His plans are always better. 

and can I just take a minute out to say how thankful I am for my handsome hubby? Not only does he work the same crazy shifts I do, but he is also kicking school's butt while also being an amazing dad and husband. He rubs my legs and feet and back and almost never complains ;) He also just got baptized and I am so proud of the man he is and is still becoming. Whenever I complain about something he tells me "Rome wasn't built in a day...isn't that what you white people say?" Oh yes he is full of jokes but he makes me laugh and I couldn't appreciate that more. He is just the most perfect support I could have ever even asked for. 

Other than that, our lives are pretty routine. We hang out with family or hang out at home while he plays video games...we are super fun haha 

Well, that's it for now. Here are some pictures to enjoy...














xoxo - Erin 

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Blessed.

I've been trying to write a blog for some time now, but can't seem to find the right words to express myself. I have so much gratitude. And so much love that has filled me lately, it's really unbelievable. I've found a new outlook on friends. I used to be an avid speaker about how friends should ALWAYS be there for you. And as much as I agree with that, I really have a new outlook on friendship. See friendship isn't about what you can get out of it; it's more about what you give. Now I recognize how frustrating it is when it seems that your friends aren't putting as much effort into a friendship as you are. Are you the one to always text first? Are you the one who's always concerned about that person? Are you left feeling like they could care less about you? ...in some cases this could be true but in most cases I have found that those are just temporary feelings you may have. I went around for a long time feeling like I really didn't have any friends. When that is the furthest thing from the truth. I have a lot of friends actually. And although I may not hear from some of them for days, weeks, maybe even months...when I need them, truly need them...they are there. But I've found something that feels even more rewarding. Me being there for them. Whether they are going through a hard time or I just take the time to text them and say hi really quickly. See, what we need to realize especially in our grown up adult friendships, is that people are busy. I've heard the complaints saying well no one is too busy if they really care. Which I believe to be true but only to an extent. See when a mother loses her child, it's not about her being there for you...it's about you being there for her. When someone miscarried, it's not about her asking about your life all time, it's about you asking her how she is feeling. When someone has moved across the country and has really crappy days, it's not about her keeping up with you, it's about you giving her the understanding that life gets busy, especially in new places. When someone is pregnant, it's not about you feeling left out because you weren't the first to know things, it's about feeling blessed because you get to be a part of it somewhere along the line. It's looking past those silly things and really wondering what you can do for them. And trust me, they'll reciprocate for you. Friendship isn't about being together all the time or talking all the time. It's really about what you can bring to the table. Do you pray for that person? Send them encouraging texts or even hellos? Do you recognize them by liking their posts on social media or even writing a quick comment here and there? Maybe I'm crazy but to me, it's really the little things that matter. And I am so blessed to have the friendships I have. Especially lately. Thank God for growing up and I thank Him for showing me what it's like to really love someone and not always making it about myself. Remember, life gets busy. People may not respond right away or find the time to text back immediately. People have problems they are going through - REAL problems and it's our obligation to be the best friend WE can be. At least that's how I see it.